And when I am with you I don’t want to think about dying, I just want to live. I really enjoy being alive with you. It makes me want to feel human.

// best friend//

You are my best friend, and for the longest time I have been in love with you. Although timing was never right, there you were by my side through it all. I need you in my life and now that we are torn apart I cannot help but feel like my heart has been ripped up in to tiny pieces and put on display for everyone we know to inspect. We risked it all that night. Your eyes were so clear and as I waited for that kiss I could feel this impending doom like a shadow behind us. I ignored it and lost myself in the moment. But that monster swiftly brought itself upon us and spat reality in my innocent face. You are gone and you will never really be mine. Although we might talk like we always use too, my heart still belongs to you, whether you know it or not. I cannot help it; I just love you too much.